The
Warsaw Orphan : A WWII Novel
Kelly
Rimmer
On Sale Date: June 1, 2021
9781525895999
Trade Paperback
$17.99 USD
Fiction / Historical / World War II
416 pages
ABOUT
THE BOOK:
With the thrilling pace and historical drama
of Pam Jenoff and Kristin Hannah, New
York Times bestselling author Kelly Rimmer's newest novel is an epic WWII
saga and love story, based on the real-life efforts of two young people taking
extraordinary risks to save their countrymen, as they try to find their way
back to each other and the life they once knew.
Following on the success of The Things We Cannot Say, this is Kelly
Rimmer's return to the WWII category with a brand new novel inspired by Irena
Sendler, the real-life Polish nurse who used her access to the Warsaw ghetto to
smuggle Jewish children and babies to safety.
Spanning the tumultuous years between 1942 and
1945 in Poland, The Warsaw Orphan follows
Emilia over the course of the war, her involvement with the Resistance, and her
love for Sergiusz, a young man imprisoned in the Jewish ghetto who's passion
leads him to fight in the Warsaw Uprising. From the Warsaw ghetto to the
Ravensbruck concentration camp, through Nazi occupation to the threat of a
communist regime, Kelly Rimmer has penned her most meticulously researched and
emotionally compelling novel to date.
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1
Roman
28
March, 1942
The human spirit is a miraculous
thing. It is the strongest part of us—crushed under pressure, but rarely
broken. Trapped within our weak and fallible bodies, but never contained. I
pondered this as my brother and I walked to a street vendor on Zamenhofa Street
in the Warsaw Ghetto, late in the afternoon on a blessedly warm spring day.
“There
was one right there,” he said, pointing to a rare gap in the crowd on the
sidewalk. I nodded but did not reply. Dawidek sometimes needed to talk me
through his workday but he did not need me to comment, which was fortunate,
because even after months of this ritual, I still had no idea what to say.
“Down
that alleyway, there was one on the steps of a building. Not even on the
sidewalk, just right there on the steps.”
I
fumbled in my pocket, making sure I still had the sliver of soap my stepfather
had given me. Soap was in desperate demand
in the ghetto, a place where
overcrowding and lack of running water had created a perfect storm for illness.
My stepfather ran a tiny dentistry practice in the front room of our apartment
and needed the soap as much as anyone—maybe even more so. But as desperate as
Samuel’s need for soap was, my mother’s need for food eclipsed it, and so there
Dawidek and I were. It was generally considered a woman’s job to go to the
market, but Mother needed to conserve every bit of strength she could, and the
street vendor Samuel wanted me to speak to was blocks away from our home.
“…and
Roman, one was behind a big dumpster,” he hesitated, then grimaced. “Except I
think we missed that one yesterday.”
I
didn’t ask how he’d come to that conclusion. I knew that the answer was liable
to make my heart race and my vision darken, the way it did sometimes.
Sometimes, it felt as if my anger was simmering just below the surface: at my
nine-year-old brother and the rest of my family. Although, none of this was
their fault. At Sala, my boss at the factory on Nowolipki Street, even though
he was a good man and he’d gone out of his way to help me and my family more
than once. At every damned German I laid eyes on. Always them. Especially them.
A sharp, uncompromising anger tinged every interaction those days, and although
that anger started and ended with the Germans who had changed our world, it
cycled through everyone else I knew before it made its way back where it
belonged.
“There
was one here yesterday. In the middle of the road at the entrance to the
market.”
Dawidek
had already told me all about that one, but I let him talk anyway. I hoped this
running commentary would spare him from the noxious interior that I was
currently grappling with. I envied the ease with which he could talk about his
day, even if hearing the details filled me with guilt. Guilt I could handle, I
probably deserved it. It was the anger that scared me. I felt like my grip on
control was caught between my sweaty hands and, at any given moment, all it
would take was for someone to startle me, and I’d lose control.
The
street stall came into view through the crowd. There was always a crush of
people on the street until the last second before seven o’clock curfew. This
was especially the case in summer, when the oppressive heat inside the ghetto
apartments could bring people to faint, besides which, the overcrowding inside
was no better than the overcrowding outside. I had no idea how many people were
inside those ghetto walls—Samuel guessed a million, Mrs. Kuklin´ski in the
bedroom beside ours said it was much more, Mother was quite confident that it
was maybe only a hundred thousand. All I knew was that ours was not the only
apartment in the ghetto designed for one family that was currently housing
four—in fact, there were many living in even worse conditions. While the
population was a hot topic of conversation on a regular basis, it didn’t
actually matter all that much to me. I could see with my own eyes and smell
with my own nose that however many people were trapped within the ghetto walls,
it was far, far too many.
When
the vendor’s table came into view, my heart sank: she was already packing up
for the day and there was no produce left. I was disappointed but not
surprised: there had been no chance of us finding food so late in the day, let
alone food that someone would barter for a simple slip of soap. Dawidek and I
had passed a store that was selling eggs, but they’d want zloty for the eggs,
not a tiny scrap of soap.
“Wait
here a minute,” I murmured to my brother, who shrugged as he sank to sit on an
apartment stoop. I might have let him follow me, but even after the depths our
family had sunk to over the years of occupation, I still hated for him to see
me beg. I glanced at him, recording his location to memory, and then pushed
through the last few feet of people mingling on the sidewalk until I reached
the street vendor. She shook her head before I’d spoken a word.
“I
am sorry young man; I have nothing to offer you.”
“I
am Samuel Gorka’s son,” I told her. It was an oversimplification of a
complicated truth, but it was the best way I could help her place me. “He fixed
your tooth for you, remember? A few months ago? His practice is on Miła
Street.”
Recognition
dawned in her gaze, but she still regarded me warily.
“I
remember Samuel and I’m grateful to him, but that doesn’t change anything. I
have no food left today.”
“My
brother and I…we work during the day. And Samuel too. You know how busy he is,
helping people like yourself. But the thing is, we have a sick family member
who hasn’t—”
“Kid,
I respect your father. He’s a good man, and a good dentist. I wish I could
help, but I have nothing to give you.” She waved to the table, to the empty
wooden box she had packed up behind her, and then opened her palms towards me
as if to prove the truth of her words.
“There
is nowhere else for me to go. I can’t take no for an answer. I’m going to bed
hungry tonight, but I can’t let…” I trailed off, the hopelessness hitting me
right in the chest. I knew I would be going home without food for my mother
that night, and the implications made me want to curl up in a ball, right there
in the gutter. But hopelessness was dangerous, at least in part because it was
always followed by an evil cousin. Hopelessness was a passive emotion, but its
natural successor drove action, and that action rarely resulted in anything
positive. I clenched my fists, and my fingers curled around the soap. I pulled
it from my pocket and extended it towards the vendor. She looked from my palm
to my face, then sighed impatiently and leaned close to me to hiss,
“I
told you. I have nothing left to trade today. If you want food, you need to
come earlier in the day.”
“That’s
impossible for us. Don’t you understand?”
To
get to the market early in the day one of us would have to miss work. Samuel
couldn’t miss work; he could barely keep up as it was—he performed extractions
from sunup to curfew most days. Rarely was this work paid now that money was in
such short supply among ordinary families like his patients, but the work was
important—not just because it afforded some small measure of comfort for a
people group who were, in every other way, suffering immensely. But every now
and again Samuel did a favor for one of the Jewish police officers or even a
passing German soldier. He had a theory that one day soon, those favors were
going to come in handy. I was less optimistic, but I understood that he
couldn’t just close his practice. The moment Samuel stopped working would be
the moment he had to perform an honest reckoning with our situation, and if he
did that, he would come closer to the despair I felt every waking moment of
every day.
“Do
you have anything else? Or is it just the soap?” the woman asked me suddenly.
“That’s
all.”
“Tomorrow.
Come back this time tomorrow. I’ll keep something for you, but for that much
soap?” She shook her head then pursed her lips. “It’s not going to be much. See
if you can find something else to barter.”
“There
is nothing else,” I said, my throat tight. But the woman’s gaze was at least
sympathetic, and so I nodded at her. “I’ll do my best. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
As
I turned away, I wondered if it was worth calling into that store to ask about
the eggs, even though I knew that the soap wasn’t nearly enough for a whole
egg. It wasn’t enough for even half an egg here on the market, and the stores
were always more expensive than the street vendors. Maybe they would give me a
shell? We could grind it up and Mother could drink it in a little water. We’d
done that once before for her. It wasn’t as good as real food, but it might
help a little overnight. It surely couldn’t hurt.
As
I spun back towards our apartment, a burst of adrenaline nearly knocked me
sideways. Dawidek hadn’t moved, but two Jewish police officers were now
standing in front of him. Like me, my brother was tall for his age—an
inheritance from our maternal grandfather that made us look bizarre when we
stood with Samuel and Mother, who were both more diminutive. Even so, he looked
far too small to be crowded into the doorway of an apartment by two Jewish
Police officers. That situation could turn to bloodshed in a heartbeat. The Kapo
operated on a spectrum from well-meaning and kindly to murderously violent, and
I had no way of knowing what kind of Kapo were currently accosting Dawidek. My
heart thundered against the wall of my chest as I pushed my way back to them,
knowing even as I approached that intervening could well get me shot.
For
everything I had been through and for everything I had seen, the only thing
that kept me going was my family, especially Dawidek. He was my favorite person
in the world, a burst of purity in an environment of pure evil. Some days, the
only time I felt still inside was when he and I were playing or talking
in the evenings—and that stillness was the only rest I got. I could not live
without him, in fact—I had already decided that if it came to that, I wouldn’t
even try.
“Dawidek?” I
called as I neared. Both Kapo turned toward me. The one on the left, the taller
one, sized me up as if an emaciated, unarmed 16-year-old was any kind of
threat. I knew from bitter experience that the smart thing to do would have
been to let Dawidek try to talk his own way out of this. He was nine years old
but used to defending himself in the bizarrely toxic environment of the Ghetto.
All day long, he was at his job alone, and I was at mine. He needed his wits
about him to survive even an hour of that, and I needed to trust that he could
handle himself.
But
I couldn’t convince myself to be smart, even when I knew that what I was about
to do was likely to earn me, at best, a severe beating. I couldn’t even stop
myself when the Kapo gave me a second chance to walk away. They ignored me and
kept their attention on my brother. “Hey!” I shouted, loud enough that my voice
echoed up and down the street, and dozens of people turned to stare. “He’s just
a kid. He hasn’t done anything wrong!”
I
was mentally planning my next move. I’d make a scene, maybe push one of the
Kapo, and when they turned to beat me, Dawidek could run. Pain was never
pleasant, but physical pain could also be an effective distraction from mental
anguish, which was the worst kind. Maybe I could even land a punch, and that
might feel good. But my brother stepped forward, held his hands up to me and
said fiercely, “These are my supervisors, Roman. Just supervisors on the crew.
We were just talking.”
My
stomach dropped. My heartbeat pounded in my ears and my hands were hot.—I knew
my face was flushed raspberry, both with embarrassment and from the adrenaline.
After a terse pause that seemed to stretch forever, the Kapo exchanged an
amused glance, one patted Dawidek on the back, and they continued down the
street, both laughing at me. Dawidek shook his head in frustration.
“Why
did you do that? What would you do, even if I was in trouble?”
“I’m
sorry,” I admitted, scraping my hand through my hair. “I lost my head.”
“You’re
always losing your head,” Dawidek muttered, falling into step beside me, as we
began to follow the Kapo back towards our own apartment. “You need to listen to
Father. Keep your head down, work hard and hope for the best. You are too smart
to keep making such dumb decisions.”
Hearing
my little brother echoing his father’s wisdom in the same tone and with the
same impatience was always jarring, but in this case, I was dizzy with relief,
and so I messed up his hair, and let out a weak laugh.
“For
a nine-year-old, you are awfully wise.”
“Wise
enough to know that you didn’t get any food for mother.”
“We
were too late,” I said, and then I swallowed the lump in my throat. “But she
said that we should come back tomorrow. She will set something aside for us.”
“Let’s
walk the long way home. The trashcans on Smocza Street are sometimes good.”
We
were far from the only family in the ghetto who had run out of resources. We
were all starving and any morsel of food was quickly found, even if it was from
a trashcan. Still, I was not at all keen to return to our crowded apartment, to
face the disappointment in my stepfather’s gaze or to see the starvation in my
mother’s. I let Dawidek lead the way, and we walked in silence, broken by his
periodic bursts of commentary.
“We
picked one up here… Another over there… Mordechai helped me with one there.”
As
we turned down a quiet street, I realized that Dawidek’s Kapo supervisors were
right in front of us, walking a few dozen feet ahead.
“We
should turn around, I don’t want any trouble with those guys,” I muttered.
Dawidek shook his head.
“They
like me. I work hard and don’t give them any trouble. Now that you have stopped
trying to get yourself killed, they won’t bother us, even if they do notice
us.”
Just
then, the shorter policeman glanced towards the sidewalk on his right, and then
he paused. He waved his companion ahead, then withdrew something from his
pocket as he crouched low to the ground. —I was far too far away to hear the
words he spoke, but I saw the sadness in his gaze. The Kapo then rose and
jogged ahead to catch up with his partner. Dawidek and I continued along the
street, but only when we drew near where he had stopped did I realize why.
We
had been in the ghetto for almost two years. Conditions were bad to begin with,
and every new day seemed to bring new trials. I learned to wear blinders—to
block out the public pain and suffering of my fellow prisoners. I had walked
every block of the ghetto, both the Little Ghetto with its nicer apartments
where the elite and artists appeared to live in relative comport, and through
the Big Ghetto, where poor families like my own were crammed in, trying to
survive at a much higher density. The footbridge on Chłodna Street connected
the two and elevated the Ghetto residents above the “Aryan” Poles, and even the
Germans, who passed beneath it. The irony of this never failed to amuse me when
I crossed. Sometimes, I crossed it just to cheer myself up.
I
knew the Ghetto inside and out, and I noticed every detail, even if I had
taught myself to ignore what I saw as much as I could. I learned not to react
when an elderly man or woman caught my hand as I passed, clawing in the hopes
that I could spare them a morsel of food. I learned not to so much as startle
if someone was shot in front of my eyes. And most of all, I learned to never
look at the face of any unfortunate soul who was prone on the sidewalk. The
only way to survive was to remain alert so I had to see it all, but I also had
to learn to look right through it. The only way to manage my own broiling fury
was to bury it.
But
the policeman had drawn my attention to a scene of utter carnage outside of
what used to be a clothing store. The store had long ago run out of stock and
had been re-purposed as accommodation for several families. The wide front
window was now taped over with Hessian sacks for privacy; outside of that
window, on the paved sidewalk, a child was lying on her stomach. Alive, but
barely.
The Ghetto was
teeming with street children. The orphanages were full to bursting which meant
that those who weren’t under the care of relatives or kindly strangers were
left to their own devices. I saw abandoned children, but I didn’t see them.
I’d have passed
right by this child on any other day. I couldn’t even manage to keep my own
family safe and well, so it was better to keep walking and spare myself the
pain of powerlessness. But I was curious about what the policeman had given the
child, and so even as we approached her, I was scanning—looking to see what had
caught his attention and to try to figure out what he’d put down on the ground.
Starvation
confused the normal growth and development of children, but even so, I guessed
she was two or three. She wore the same vacant expression I saw in most
children by that stage. Patches of her hair had fallen out, and her naked
stomach and legs were swollen. Someone had taken her clothing except for a
tattered pair of underwear, and I understood why.
This child would
not be alive by morning. Once they became too weak to beg for help, it didn’t
take long, and this child was long past that point. Her dull brown eyes were
liquid pools of defeat and agony.
My eyes drifted
to her hands. One was lying open and empty on the sidewalk beside her, her palm
facing upward, as if opening her hands to God. The other was also open, slumped
against the sidewalk on the other side of her, but this palm was not empty.
Bread. The policeman had pressed a chunk of bread beneath the child’s hand. I
stared at the food and even though it was never going to find its way to my
lips, my mouth began to water. I was torturing myself, but it was much easier
to look at the bread than at the girl’s dull eyes.
Dawidek stood
silently beside me. I thought of my mother, and then crouched beside the little
girl.
“Hello,” I said,
stiff and awkward. The child did not react. I cast my gaze all over her face,
taking it in. The sharp cheekbones. The way her eyes seemed too big for her
face. The matted hair. Someone had once brushed this little girl’s hair, and
probably pulled it into pretty braids. Someone had once bathed this child, and
tucked her into bed at night, bending down to whisper in her ear that she was
loved and special and wanted.
Now, her lips
were dry and cracked, and blood dried into a dirty black scab in the corner of
her mouth. My eyes burned, and it took me a moment to realize that I was
struggling to hold back tears.
“You should eat
the bread,” I urged softly. Her eyes moved, and then she blinked, but then her
eyelids fluttered and fell closed. She drew in a breath, but her whole chest
rattled, the sound I knew people made just before they died—when they were far
too ill to even cough. A tear rolled down my cheek. I closed my eyes, but now,
instead of blackness, I saw the little girl’s face.
This was why I
learned to wear blinders, because if you got too close to the suffering, it
would burn itself into your soul. This little girl was now a part of me, and
her pain was part of mine.
Even so, I knew
that she could not eat the bread. The policeman’s gesture had been
well-meaning, but it had come far too late. If I didn’t take the bread, the
next person who passed would. If my time in the ghetto had taught me anything,
it was that life might deliver blessings, but each one would have a sting in
its tail. God might deliver us fortune, but never without a cost. I would take
the bread, and the child would die overnight. But that wouldn’t be the end of
the tragedy. In some ways, it was only the beginning.
I wiped my cheeks
roughly with the back of my hand, and then before I could allow my conscience
to stop me, I reached down and plucked the bread from under the child’s hand,
to swiftly hide it my pocket. Then I stood, and forced myself to not look at
her again. Dawidek and I began to walk.
“The little ones
should be easier. I don’t have to ask the big kids for help lifting them, and
they don’t weigh anything at all. They should be easier, shouldn’t they?”
Dawidek said, almost philosophically. He sighed heavily, and then added in a
voice thick with confusion and pain. “I’ll be able to lift her by myself
tomorrow morning, but that won’t make it easier.”
Fortune gave me a
job with one of the few factories in the ghetto that was owned by a kindly Jew,
rather than some German businessman only wanting to take advantage of slave
labor. But this meant that when the Kapo came looking for me at home, to help
collect the bodies from the streets before sunrise each day, the only other
viable person in our household was my brother.
When Dawidek was
first recruited to this hideous role, I wanted to quit my job so that I could
relieve him of it. But corpse-collection was unpaid work and my factory job
paid me in food—every single day, I sat down to a hot lunch, which meant other
members of my family could share my portion of rations. This girl would die
overnight, and by dawn, my little brother would have lifted her into the back
of a wagon. He and a team of children and teenagers, under the supervision of
the Kapo, would drag the wagon to the cemetery, where they would tip the
corpses into a pit with dozens of others.
Rage, black and
red and violent in its intensity, clouded the edges of my vision and I felt the
thunder of the injustice in my blood. But then Dawidek drew a deep breath, and
he leaned forward to catch my gaze. He gave me a smile, a brave smile, one that
tilted the axis of my world until I felt it chase the rage away.
I had to maintain
control. I couldn’t allow my fury to destroy me, because my family was relying
on me. Dawidek was relying on me.
“Mother is going
to be so excited to have bread,” he said, his big brown eyes lighting up at the
thought of pleasing her. “And that means Eleonora will get better milk
tomorrow, won’t she?”
“Yes,” I said, my
tone as empty as the words themselves. “This bread is a real blessing.”
Excerpted from The Warsaw
Orphan by Kelly Rimmer, Copyright © 2021 by Lantana Management Pty Ltd. Published by Graydon House
Books.
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR:
Kelly Rimmer is the worldwide, New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of Before
I Let You Go, The Things We Cannot
Say, and Truths I Never Told You.
She lives in rural Australia with her husband, two children and fantastically
naughty dogs, Sully and Basil. Her novels have been translated into more than
twenty languages. Please visit her at https://www.kellyrimmer.com/
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