The Hopeless Romantic
If people came with titles, that would be mine – Kellie Kamryn, Hopeless Romantic. Even after ending a twenty year relationship, I still believe in love and always will. Why? Because, for me, a life without love is a life not worth living. There are all kinds of love in this world. The love you have for your family, the love you feel for your children, the love you have for a significant other, the love you have for your friends. But the love I’m talking about today is of the romantic variety – “the head over heels, thinks you’re the greatest thing ever” kind of love.
I’m going through a huge transition in my life. I’m closing the book on a twenty year chapter, and while it’s time to write the new story of my life, it’s also difficult. Not because I want that life back, but because forging a new one is, well, kind of scary. To create the life you want, you have to do things in a way you’ve never done before, and this includes looking at “LOVE” in a completely different way. And the first person, I have to love is myself. How can I expect to attract the kind of love I want in my life if I don’t first transform myself into the type of person capable and worthy of loving that way?
You know that saying, “It’s you, not me”? Well, a truer statement was never made. If I like myself the way I am, then someone else should like me for who I am, too. I think the problem people have with love in general is that they want to please someone else too much. They make assumptions without knowing what is going on first. We take it personally if someone doesn’t message, or text or call when we think they should. I’m not saying that someone should walk all over you, but too often we place our expectations onto somebody else without even telling them what we need. We spend too much time worrying about what someone else is thinking. So, unless you have the ability to read minds, just worry about yourself! I think a true love is one that is mutually beneficial, where it’s easy to be with that person, where you trust, the trust is returned, and it isn’t like pulling teeth to get affection. Does it exist? Absolutely. I see it with my friends, I read about it in others lives, I know its out there, I have experienced it. I believe in LOVE.
I will forever remain the hopeless romantic and perhaps that’s why I write about it. My latest release is a reunion romance. Two lovers coming back together after they fell short of their expectations of each other, due to miscommunication. I wanted to give them a chance to get it right, but do they?
REBOUND, Book 1 in the Love and Balance series
An award-winning choreographer must face the only man she's ever loved then lost when they are teamed up to work together at a gymnastics camp for Olympic hopefuls.
Claire LeMay is at the top of her game - she's head of a prominent gymnastics facility with her gymnasts winning awards for her outstanding choreography. Now her biggest challenge is to coach alongside the man she's avoided for three years after he demanded she live in his shadow instead of forging her own path.
After sinking every penny of his inheritance into his state-of-the-art gymnastics facility, Justin Black has achieved his dream. But even with hundreds of members and well-trained coaches, when Claire's presence invades his space, he reluctantly admits she's the one thing missing in his life. Oblivious as to why she walked out on him three years ago, he attempts to call a truce.
Are they destined to repeat the same old routine or will they be able to choreograph a new one?
Like old times, they brushed their teeth together at the sink. When she finished, she left the bathroom and curled up on her side of the bed with the blanket tucked under her chin.
Justin locked the door and shut off the lights. As her eyes adjusted to the dim light, she watched his silhouette walk over to the bed. He lay down on his side and covered himself with the other blanket.
Even though they were less than a foot apart, the past—and all the hurt that went with it—lay between them, a gulf as wide as the
Grand Canyon. Since
the night she’d walked out on him, there had been many a lonely moment when
she’d longed to fall asleep in his arms, but asking for that now might lead her
down a path she wasn’t sure she was prepared to follow. There were too many
regrets already, and she didn’t want to add one more to the list by putting
herself in a position where she had to either sleep with him or turn him down.
She didn’t want to cause either one of them any more pain, and yet she hated
“You seemed angry with me when you dropped me off tonight.”
“I was,” he admitted.
Silence descended for a moment. Then he said, “Because you don’t have the right to be mad at me for taking a lover. I thought you were with someone else. I know you told me you didn’t sleep with Marco, but you certainly made it seem like you did.”
“I wasn’t angry with you,” she whispered. “I was disappointed in myself.”
He rolled onto his side, propping his head up in his hand. “What do you mean?”
She turned her head to look at him. “I lied to you.”
“What? Did you sleep with, Marco? Is that what you lied about?”
She shook her head vigorously at the angry look on his face. “No, I never slept with Marco, and that’s the truth. But, I let you think I did. I was angry with you, and I moved in with him to hurt you.”
He flopped onto his back and stared at the ceiling. In a hushed voice, he said, “Well, congratulations then. You succeeded.”
Oh the angst and heartbreak! How naïve we can be in our younger years! I hope you all check out Rebound, and thanks to Dawn for having me as a guest today. Wishing you all much love and happiness J Love is out there – don’t give up on it! Tell me about about your experiences with love and I’ve got some great swag to give away.
Readers can find me at: www.kelliekamryn.com, www.kelliekamryn.blogspot.com, www.facebook.com/KellieKamryn or on twitter @KellieKamryn
Buy Links: Secret Cravings Publishing